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It’s Valentine’s again :(

Valentine Oh valentine you come around again
Your little angel missed and his arrow went in vain
I hate that you coming and your presence I disdain
For the ladies will be loved and I will watch in pain

As two days go by with no red flower in sight
My heart will be aching, my brain will fright
Another year has passed and lonely was my fight
To have a decent journey and make it look right

But I miss having emotions, sentiments, feelings
As the years flew by my heart’s crust is peeling
My heart is aching, crying, bleeding and dreaming
Of a second chance to loving, beating and healing

But I will not break and I will not bend
My heart has scars that only I can mend
Give me a lover and to him I will tend
Make his pain mine and all his suffer end

A lover to be partner for the good and the bad
Another story though from the one I had
That one broke my back and made my heart mad
No, a nice story that would make me not be a lad

A story that would summon that woman I buried
Who had to disappear when to a monster was married
That monster she divorced and her own life she carried
With her two beautiful angels on a journey she ferried

Oh valentine be nice be gentle and be kind
Your presence and festivities I do not mind
But for godssake for next year do unwind
And let that arrow of yours my heart find                                                                       Image

A dim light in pitch black darkness

With everything happening in the world today,  especially in our beloved country of the cedar and the Phoenicians, u get the chance once in a while to go out and have a blast on a Saturday night.  Yesterday was one of these crazy nights.  It happened to be my young brother’s bday, the right crowd was there (my kind of crowd at least), the perfect music was playing (some 80s & 90s and some rock), the snacks, the drinks…. it was one of these nights that makes me think twice of accepting that overseas job i applied to to escape the bitter reality of the country I live in. 
Then morning come, you turn on the TV and hear some crazy people playing nostradamus and telling us how fucked up our 2014 is going to be. Get ready people, the UNCHR has reported a number of 4.000.000 refugees in 2014. Every lebanese will have the social and financial burden of a syrian refugee.
I guess the plan has changed once again, the plan for a new house has to wait, again.
I hate the imbalance I’m feeling. The “should I go or should I stay” song repeating its play for the past 10 years now. I need a new song in my life…